Girl's Diary
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Moving
About two and a half years ago, my family and I moved to Howland, Maine. Now we are going to move back to our old neighborhood. It isn't fair. I haven't heard from any of my old friends, so I will have no new friends when we move back. I will have to leave all my new friends behind. At least I will still be able to stay in touch with them.
November 15
November 15 is when it happened. One of my friends had threatened another girl. I was sitting right there. At first I thought she was kidding, but then she pulled out a knife. I wasn't sure what to do. The first thing that came into my mind was to run. Then I thought if I ran, what would happen to that girl? I said to my friend "what are you doing? She didn't do anything wrong!" My friend said "Yes she did. She stole one of my shirts." I said "So your going to hurt a girl over a stupid shirt?" She thought for a minute and decided to tell the girl she was sorry. The girl had said she was sorry and handed the shirt back to my friend, who then pocketed the knife. My friend didn't get in trouble, but she will think twice before she pulls a knife on someone again!
Prom
My dress ended up being fine thank goodness! There was a problem with my dress though. I couldn't bend over or my butt would show through the small split in the back.
So prom was only fun because I got to be with my Boyfriend and my friends. Other than that, the prom was lame! The music sucked. It was way too loud. That didn't stop us from dancing though. The weird thing about the dance was that everyone else on the dance floor was pretty much dry humping, awkward for my boyfriend who is a good boy that goes to my church. Well that didn't stop him from being a guy. He was touching me everywhere. That took me by surprise. He looked so great in his tux, it was like the tux was made for him. He's so amazing. I couldn't be happier. When we slow danced he sang the words to me. It was so romantic! Everything was great until my ex boyfriend showed up. He was alone, sat at a table and watched Hunter and I dance. My heart sunk. I hated it so much. Hunter noticed me staring back and took me farther into the crowd. I hated having to go through those feelings when I was with this amazing guy, who I love dearly. The worst part was when Hunter and I slow danced I could see him dancing with someone else looking at me. I got over and had a blast.
So prom was only fun because I got to be with my Boyfriend and my friends. Other than that, the prom was lame! The music sucked. It was way too loud. That didn't stop us from dancing though. The weird thing about the dance was that everyone else on the dance floor was pretty much dry humping, awkward for my boyfriend who is a good boy that goes to my church. Well that didn't stop him from being a guy. He was touching me everywhere. That took me by surprise. He looked so great in his tux, it was like the tux was made for him. He's so amazing. I couldn't be happier. When we slow danced he sang the words to me. It was so romantic! Everything was great until my ex boyfriend showed up. He was alone, sat at a table and watched Hunter and I dance. My heart sunk. I hated it so much. Hunter noticed me staring back and took me farther into the crowd. I hated having to go through those feelings when I was with this amazing guy, who I love dearly. The worst part was when Hunter and I slow danced I could see him dancing with someone else looking at me. I got over and had a blast.
Amber_Nicole's comment: I'm glad everything turned out okay.
Affection
I love my guy and even though he doesn't really show it I know he loves me too. Sometimes I wish he wouldn't hurt me by acting in a "whatever" kind of way. I'm a girl, and although I'm not really into girlish stuff i have the feelings of a girl. Girls always want to be cuddled, hugged, petted, and other stuff by their man. They want to be told sweet words that makes their toes curl and makes them blush. I want that too. I just wish he could step up on that a little bit. If he doesn't I guess I'm cool with it. I want to be with him forever. I hope he wants me too. If that's going to happen I guess I have to get used to this. Dear god please keep us together.
Out of control
My life is so out of control. My boyfriend dumped me because he didn't "like me" anymore. (It was because I wasn't Emo like he is.) Four geeks have crushes on me and it's getting on my nerves. My best friend doesn't know that I have a crush on him, and my other best friend got a boyfriend. I got sad because I'm single.
That's my everyday life.
That's my everyday life.
Amber_Nicole's comment: Try taking everything one step at a time. Things will get better, trust me.
Advice
To Shortstella,
I used to be a cutter too. I have a piece of advice for you. STOP! Talk to your family and friends. If you want to stop it, you can. Talk to people and don't be afraid to tell people. If they are really your friends, they will stick by you no matter what. Be what you want to be, rather bisexual, lesbian, or straight. Be who you want to be and you'll be fine. Just be yourself and live your life. Shine like a star and go far!!
I used to be a cutter too. I have a piece of advice for you. STOP! Talk to your family and friends. If you want to stop it, you can. Talk to people and don't be afraid to tell people. If they are really your friends, they will stick by you no matter what. Be what you want to be, rather bisexual, lesbian, or straight. Be who you want to be and you'll be fine. Just be yourself and live your life. Shine like a star and go far!!
Amber_Nicole's comment: I'm glad everyone is okay! Also, I'm glad the three of you managed to solve the problem without violence in the end.